Hey loves! How are you all doing? First of all, thank you so much for the love on last week’s post 🙂 . We experienced an unexpected loss towards the end of last week and I honestly don’t know how I feel. Part of me wants to “live, my darling, live”. But part of me is just there, going through the motions, and I have been for a while.
But when I was journaling this morning I realised that I’m sick and tired of a number of things. I’m sick and tired of just surviving. I’m sick and tired of allowing negative thoughts to live in my mind rent free. I’m sick and tired of my skin breaking out. I’m sick and tired of living in fear. I’m sick and tired of feeling like God hasn’t been listening. I’m sick and tired of worrying about my job. I’m just sick and tired.
My birthday is in 4 days and for the first time in as long as I can remember, I haven’t made any plans. And I probably won’t because I’m not really in the headspace for it. I’d initially made travel plans with my girls to my favourite place but then we were slapped with a lockdown therefore I had to forgo them.
So I’ve decided to take the time to heal. To work on the things I’m sick and tired about. To declutter my life. To spend more time in silence. To nourish my body. To feed my mind. To be gentle with myself. To release fear. To stop apologising for who I am. To treat myself the same way I would treat someone I love. And I want to challenge you to do the same. What don’t you like about your life? Can you change it? Take this time to do that. And if you can’t change it, take this time to forgive yourself and unlearn the hate. 35 days of healing. 35 days of self love.
You matter. You are loved. And you deserve to do more than just survive. Be intentional about your healing. Let go of the things that are holding you back and blocking you from living an abundant life. I can’t wait to hear all about your healing journey at the end of it all. And I can’t wait to comeback to this post a year from now and see how full circle I’ll have come.
As usual, remember to wear your masks, sanitize, social distance when possible and drink your Java dawas/multivitamins. See you next week loves! 🙂